Well this past couple of months has been proving to be quite a ride for us. My mind has been constantly playing out many different scenarios in regards to our second adoption. Our agency announced a large annual fee increase back in February and that hit pretty hard...considering we still have approximately another 5yrs to wait. We weren't quite expecting such a large additional amount to be added to the current budgeted adoption costs so it kind of sent us in a whirl. We also don't feel that we should have to pay such a large amount for our file that is just sitting in China...I better stick with the current topic at hand.
So lots of discussion and thoughts have been tossed around these past few weeks in regards to what do we do? Our home study just happens to expire in April so we are at a crossroads we feel at this point...we could do a few things...pay the bill & update the home study and continue to wait, update the home study and apply for a special needs child, or pull out and call our family complete. Let me tell you the decision is a tough one and not only that it is a life changing one as well. I have struggled with the thought of pulling out at first but am starting to come to terms with the idea...Olivia being an only child is not what I wanted for her but maybe in God's great plan for our lives that is what he wants. UGGGGHH the confusion is horrible and not knowing what to do is just terrifying at times...I just pray the answer will come soon as to what we should do.
After all that confusion you just read through we are currently researching and looking into the Waiting Children's Program and what that all entails. It may end up with a door being opened or a door being closed.
Check back in later to keep posted on the latest as the ride continues.
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